Memorial website in the memory of your loved one

This website was created in the memory of our beloved brother and son, Clint Reagan, who was born in May 1985 and passed away in August 2005 at the age of 20. Clint is very much alive in our hearts and always will be. He is and will continue to be as much as a part of our lives in spirit as he ever was.

 

 

Thank you, Julie.

 

Alan and I thank each of you for visiting Clint's site. Each visit to this site or to his grave, is a hug to our heart.
We hope you have a blessed day filled with precious memories. May the bright light from your child's radiant love guide your way.


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"The love that is in a parent's heart stays deep, strong and true. No matter where you go, that love is there with you".   Quote by Edgar Cayce.


Picture by Blake

(See more below. "Thanks Blake. Love you.")

 

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Thank you, Julie for the graphic


 

I invite you to visit http://opentohope.com/ for articles on loss and grieving.


                 

(one of my favorite pictures)

 

Candy Lightner, founder of Madd, says, "Grief has a beginning, a middle and the rest of our lives."  We are working on the 'rest of our lives' part.

Our world crashed when Clint died. For a long time we were lost in our grief, but now we are allowing the light of Clint's love to guide us to a new normal.

In the beginning this unspeakable loss was so big, it was hard to find our voice. There were times that it was hard just to breath. We felt our loss in every cell of our being and down to the core of our soul. Now each day we try to celebrate our love for Clint's life and his spirit as we also mourn the loss of his physical presence. We continue to search for ways to re-invest ourselves into the life we have now. We miss Clint deeply, but we are trying to find ways to balance our pain and our boundless love.
 

Thank you for visiting Clint's site. We want to thank everyone for the thoughts and remembrances, because they warm our hearts beyond measure. We are sure Clint is smiling down on all of us. We think he would have loved this site.



"Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass....It's about learning to dance in the rain."  Unknown author


 

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www.listening-hearts.memory-of.com


Listening Hearts -A Gathering of Bereaved Mothers

will meet in Knoxville

on Saturday, February 4, 2012
3:00 p.m. to 5:00 p.m. 

at

 Eye Institute

(formerly the Baptist Eye Institute)

Conference Room

2020 Kay Street

Knoxville, TN  37920

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We now have a second meeting place:


Saturday, March 3rd , 10 am-12 noon

Hillcrest Baptist Church
Fellowship Hall
410 S. Liberty Hill Road
Morristown, TN 37813

 


Join us as we listen to our own hearts and the hearts of each other. No one should walk this journey alone, so we share with each other ways to carry the loss and the love. We share, make memorial crafts, offer friendship, understanding and hope.

We invite you to bring with you items that you would like to share with the group such as: poems, articles, and songs.


"As we learn to carry these feelings, we realize there is room in our hearts for more than the pain and anguish of separation. I hope one day you find you have peace along side of the pain."  -Unknown Author
 

 

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"Life is continuous, and is Infinite. Death is only passing through God's other door". 
Quote by Edgar Cayce.

                           Our Clint

 

 



Everyone was so excited when Clint came into our lives that beautiful day in May. While we were at the hospital the day he was born, back home the contractor began work on our new home. (Now every time the subject comes up about how long we have lived in this house, we think of Clint.  Some days it seems all thoughts lead back to Clint.) We were a young family with many hopes and dreams. Clint was a delightful child and made our family of four complete. He was this adorable bundle of  joy and love who was very affectionate and loved to cuddle.

Clint's older brother, Blake, told every visitor, "He is our baby and you can't  take him with you."  That was the beginning of a brotherly love that continued throughout their lives. This was a precious time in our lives!

 

 
 

 
As Clint grew from our baby to our little boy, his love for animals grew. The line in the poem, little boys are made of snakes, snails and puppy dog tails, could have been used to describe Clint. As a small boy, he could spend the afternoon outside carrying around a caterpillar so he could share it with his dad when he got home.  We purchased one hamster from the pet store and a few weeks later we had a cage full. One of his favorite things to do when he was young was to carry a baby hamster piggyback in the hood of his sweatshirt.

We had our share of pets: dogs, cats, hamsters, a rabbit, ducks, chickens, and fish. Years later I learned the stray dog we had for 16 years had a little coaxing when she chose our house out of all the others in the neighborhood.  Our pet population continued to grow. Later, Clint was so proud when he was able to locate an orange kitten that needed a home because his brother had always wanted one. Of course, he chose a kitten for himself also. Clint was always bringing home treats and toys for the cats. 



 
 

Many years ago while on vacation Clint's love for fishing began. At the beach he could spend hours walking along the waters edge catching small fish in his net. The fish were released for another day. Once he came across a baby hammerhead shark at the shoreline. That was an exciting day for a little boy!

We still get a laugh out of the time we were fishing from a pier, and Clint made it a fishing competition with Nanny. He tried to keep up with every fish she caught so he could make sure he caught at least one more. The conditions were right and they both caught many fish that day. 


 


Clint's love for fishing continued, and a love for other sports grew. He was a team player and  loved the years he played on the school basketball team. What he lacked in skill, he seemed to make up with enthusiasm. He seemed to be able to lift the spirits of his teammates whenever he went into the game.

During those elementary school years, Clint also played baseball. He found pleasure in everything connected to sports; playing, watching, and collecting cards.

Once we traveled to Chicago so both guys could attend a baseball game between their favorite teams and see a few of their favorite players. We also visited Shedd Aquarium and rode the "L" train. He later turned this experience into an award winning social studies project.

It seemed sports were always on his mind. When Clint was young, he would practice signing his name in hopes of one day being a famous baseball player that would be asked to autograph baseball cards. Perhaps now he will be the angel in the outfield.




 

Our son always had many good friends and they were important to him. Although, Clint was not a morning person, after a good hug he was anxious to go to school and be with those friends. (Clint freely gave hugs, but little did I know I was storing hugs that would have to last me a lifetime.)

His friendships continued for years. Alan said it seemed as though he took Clint to every birthday party in the county.  A friend shared with me recently, how Clint brought the best birthday gifts.

I think Clint viewed school as a place to spend time with one's friends instead of a place to learn. But he did like reading and attended summer reading programs at the local library. Later, he helped out there also. Clint also excelled in spelling.





Our youngest son participated in many clubs and activities. He attended YOKE Ministries after school. Each summer he looked forward to attending 4-H camp. I will never forget the first time I put him on the bus for camp. Neither will I ever forget the smell in his suitcase of wet dirty clothes when he arrived back home at the end of the week.

Later, he even became a camp counselor. He found it rewarding to help the young campers that were homesick or the "homesickees" as he called them. Clint said he did it because he remembered his first time away from home and the how he felt.  (Now, I often think of him as assisting the little ones in Heaven.)

He loved to joke and act silly at times. Clint  wanted everyone to be happy and he seemed to have a talent at always making people laugh. 
  
 
 



 
During the high school years, Clint had some ups and downs. Despite this, he always had a smile. He ran track his freshman year and sports were still a part of his life. His enjoyment of fishing continued; although, it was during a fishing trip that he sustained a serious and permanent eye injury. This did not keep him from other activities. (Now his troubles are gone and his eye sight is perfect. We try to find small condolences where we can.)

One summer, Clint visited Australia and New Zealand as the People to People student program. He cherished those memories and hoped to return to Australia one day. The leaders of the trip had cautioned the parents against expecting too much communication from their child during the trip because of the busy schedule. We were so pleased to hear from Clint often and still cherish his notes and emails.



We have the memories of many family activities to hold in our hearts, but they will never be a substitute for having him here with us. 

Clint enjoyed life and so many things in it: board games, video games, miniature golf as well as white water rafting.

He also found joy in collecting items. Over the years he collected Pez dispensers and he had a sizable collection of them. We learned the hard way they can be like dominoes lined up; when one fell, they would all fall. (All these memories and more we hold in our hearts.)

 


We also have our memories of all the holidays and trips. Fall was probably his favorite time of the year. He looked forward to all the activities with the season; football, Halloween, corn mazes, haunted houses, and Thanksgiving.  Alan, Clint and I would get up very early the day after Thanksgiving, fight the crowds and shop the sales. We felt lucky to have had a teen that still wanted to go places with his parents.


 

But as much as Clint liked holiday shopping, Halloween was probably one of his favorite fall holidays. For several years as a family project, we would hand out candy as volunteers at the local zoo. We had plans to celebrate Halloween at Disney that October. Even though that trip never came about, we have the memories of many other family vacations. He never seemed too old to have his picture made with the characters at Walt Disney World.

We have so many precious memories to help fill the empty spaces in our hearts. But there will always be a hole left there after Clint died.




After high school, Clint signed up to attend a community college. In the meantime he worked with his father at an engineering company. He considered his father his best friend.

Clint spent his time like most young people: listening to  music, playing video games, looking at cars, spending time with his girlfriend, talking on the phone and shopping vintage T-shirts. He and his brother enjoyed watching various shows together, such as: Cops, and Orange County Choppers. They also enjoyed cutting up and just being brothers in general. 


  


Clint also put his time and money into making custom changes to his car. He had numerous other interests.  He loved going to the zoo and Dollywood. He loved spending time with friends.  Clint discussed obtaining a membership at the local gym.

He enjoyed attending UT football, and baseball games. He liked a variety of sports and teams.  Some of his favorites were Auburn, Florida, Georgia, North Carolina and Chicago White Sox. 

 

 

"Your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be." (Psalm 139:16)


We were blessed to have shared a wonderful childhood with Clint and to have had 20 years together. But, our beloved son and brother left us too soon. We miss his big hugs and bright smiles so much.  We miss his singing, his whistling, his laughs, and the smell of his favorite cologne. We also miss the joyous moments he brought to the family.

We still look for him to come walking through the door,  instead he walks through our hearts. One always knew when Clint was in the room. We knew when he was anywhere in the house. We miss the way he filled a room and filled the house. Edna St. Vincent Millay wrote, "The presence of that absence is everywhere."


                  



 
Clint always had a tender heart and generous nature. He had been encouraging a dear and special friend to make contact with estranged family members. He always seemed to have encouraging words to offer to others. One of his favorite movies was Pay It Forward. In his honor we hope to pay forward acts of kindness.


               April 29th is Pay It Forward Day.


  

 


"When our mortal eyes close on this world for the last time, our angels open our spiritual eyes and escort us personally before the face of God."

-Eileen Elias Freeman,
"The Angels' Little Instruction Book"

 




This page is intended to introduce you to Clint and to give you a hint of the son and brother we all knew and loved. To learn more about his struggles and death, read the section labeled medical information listed under the legacy section.

 


"To meet and to part is the story of life, and to part and meet is the glory of life."


"What is Life? It is the flash of a firefly in the night."

-- Crowfoot, Blackfoot warrior and orator, 1890

 


 


 

 

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After Clint died, our transformation from the life we had planned to the life we have now, began when a counselor suggested we find our local Compassionate Friends group. Their national site, http://www.compassionatefriends.org, had a link to the Internet talk show called Healing the Grieving Heart. I still find this show to be very helpful. In fact it was through that show that I came to know about this Memory-of site.

Drs. Gloria and Heidi Horsley have a site at: 

http://opentohope.com  offers articles about grief and loss.

 

                           

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No one is gone until they are forgotten, and Clint will not be forgotten.

 


This is one of Clint's favorites pictures. He labeled it Sexy Man.
 





One year Butterfly Day was on Clint' birthday.






"I'm glad we had the times together just to laugh and sing a song, seems like we just got started and then before you know it, the times we had together were gone."    --Dr. Seuss







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Joy is a light that fills you with Hope, Faith, and Love.






 

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"They say that time in heaven is compared to 'the blink of an eye' for us on this earth. Sometimes it helps me to think of my child running ahead of me through a beautiful field of wildflowers and butterflies; so happy and completely caught up in what he/she is doing that when he/she looks behind him, I'll already be there."

--Author Unknown










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"The most important thing that survives death is love.  It's what we are made of, what we communicate with, and what we ultimately return to.  Most spirits come to us from love, to let us know they still care, sometimes to warn us or to complete unfinished business, and mostly to connect heart to heart with us again.  Love will always be our lifeline--to the spirits around us, the people who are still on this plan, and to the universal unconditional love that is God."
 
from the book, Questions from Earth Answers from Heaven, by Char Margolis

 

 





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Julie, thank you for the beautiful graphic.



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Pictures by Blake








 

 

Sometimes the heart sees what is invisible to the eyes. 

 

 

 

 

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"There are no goodbyes for us. Wherever you are You will always be in our hearts." ---Mahatma Ghandi








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Artwork by Kate





Thank you, Elaine

 



 


 

 


 


 

 


 

 

 

 

Click here to see Clint Reagan's
Family Tree
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His legacy
Washington Irving quote  
“There is a sacredness in tears. They are not the mark of weakness but of power. They speak more eloquently than ten thousand tongues. They are messengers of overwhelming grief...and unspeakable love.” -Washington Irving

Quote  
I am sore but this cord is my lifeline as never before. I am thankful that God connects us this way a mother and child death can't take it away!
~Author Unknown




Fred Rogers  

There are times when explanations no matter how reasonable just don't seem to help...When the day turns into night And you're way beyond my sight I think of you.......Fred Rogers


Kahlil Gibran  

"Oh, heart if one should say to you that the soul perishes like the body answer that the flower withers but the seed remains." ~Kahlil Gibran




Marcel Proust  

“There is no more ridiculous custom than the one that makes you express sympathy once and for all on given day to a person whose sorrow will endure as long as his life. Such grief, left in such way, is always “present” it is never too late to talk about it, never repetitious to mention it again.”


~ Marcel Proust

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